Very nice, though I'm afraid it's a little too late for me. I've been adventuring in Vana'diel for over a year and each day, it gets tougher and tougher to come back. I play because my friends play (my real life friends) and sadly, as much as I wish I could have, I never really made any friends in the game. I've never been in a static party and the only LS I own is one I bought for me and my 3 RL friends.
I wish it could have been different. I've tried at times to join new LS', but when I've asked, only a couple have offered (Thank you, Dahlgren), though I never seem to be able to get a hold of them to get a pearl. Either they aren't or we're half way across the world from one another or someone is AFK.
I hear about all these great stories of people meeting and I see many people saying Hello! to old friends at lvl 70+ that have been together since the beginning. I see females in the Opaline gear and realize that they've even found someone they're so close to, they can get "married" to them.
I once, too, was filled with thoughts of adventure... the want to meet new people and make friends with those I met, but sadly, it was not to be. Too many people calling each other names or MPKing or just plain being jerks. I've never gotten to experience the comraderie or friendship that comes with partying with those you've known for a long time. You all know your jobs and you do it well because you care about what happens to your teammates. I guess with all the parties I've been in, with people leaving as soon as I get there, with me taking the shot, dying for them as they leave me high and dry, I guess I've just become desensitized.
Maybe someday I'll meet some people that I'll be able to have a friendship with, to laugh and joke around as we tackle missions and quests that we all need (or even don't need, but just want to go along for the ride), to level our subjobs and go hunting for our AF together. Maybe I'll be able to recapture tha magic that first drew me into the game... and develop a kind of kinship that I did with a few members from my old LS, Altana's Tears before it, like the LS in the story, broke up. I was such a low level then, with my 30 war being my highest job and nothing else above lvl 14. I still smile as I think back to good ol' Taranthar trying to help me get my Kazham keys with no luck. I have fond memories of Garamonde helping me get from Rank 2-3 to 4-1 in the span of one day. Of the LS events we held, that at the time I thought were a bit stupid because I couldn't really participate, but now realize that if I just gave them a chance, it would have been fun.
Most of them are gone now. I've seen Taranthar in passing once a few months ago and I haven't seen Garamonde since the Tears ended. Sometimes, I think I'm one of the few Tears left out there that still plays, but like most of the others, I've let myself get worn down by the "grind" and have joined the only thing I know: how to level. There's so many more quests and missions I have yet to do, so many sights to see.
I hope that I'll be able to make some new friends... get a new LS... recapture that adventuring spirit I once had. Maybe I'll remember those I once partied with and had fun with, though it was only for a time or two. Maybe one day, I'll be doing my own marriage quest for that certain female character I meet and go farming, crafting, and gardening for months just to afford the dress.
I hope to see you all there when that day comes. Until then, don't lose the spirit like I have. It becomes so hard to regain. Oh, and if anyone needs someone to party with or help on your own adventure, whether its a lvl 50 pld, a lvl 38 sam, or any of the jobs in my sig... or even a blm or rdm if I get them up a few more levels... don't be afraid to send me a tell. I'll be there.
Chaossoul
EDIT: Wow, that went on long didn't it? I guess time flies when you're reflecting. ^^ Don't be afraid to read it though!
Edited, Tue Mar 15 16:07:27 2005 by KLGChaos