A few months ago, I quit this game. I ground up my CD's and threw them away. I gave away all my priceless gear. I found out what it was to spend time with my newborn son, with my girlfriend, and our other 2 children.
Recently, I've come to a place where things are going good in my life. I'm winning the battle (most days) with the depression that was compelling me to escape into this game. I'm better of physically, emotionally, and financially than I've ever been in my life. I'm pretty content.
Still, I've played every FF since the first, and this has by far been my favorite. I can't get it out of my blood. Recently, I've been thinking of coming back. I have better time management skills, and no longer feel the need to escape from the real world 24/7/365. So I went out and bought the Vana'Diel collection, and I'm updating as we speak. Soon I'll be creating a character, but on what server? What adventures lie in wait for me? Will I rejoin old friends, or make new?
I'll tell you one thing... I owe Nebz 30k for some seers gear he made for me. So I want to make it back to cerberus for at least as long as it takes to make that gil and get it to Nebz. He was helping me out when I came back the last time, but I had to quit so abruptly again for lots of personal reasons, that I never got to say anything to him, and I have a desire to make it right. So, if someone could help me out with a WP, it will be worth the price of the WP + 500 gil. Please send me a PM on alla with more information.
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Un-frigging believably, I remembered my old POL ID and password.
Junpei is back baby!!
Junpei is back baby!!
Junpei! Good to see you back (again)! I'll look for you in game.
Feetwizzy
Feetwizzy
{Welcome Back} ^^
I'm back for good this time Feet :)
And I got my girlfriend playing too,if you run into a tiny taru by the name of Tigerlilli, that's her :)
Neera: {Thank you!} ( '-')b
And I got my girlfriend playing too,if you run into a tiny taru by the name of Tigerlilli, that's her :)
Neera: {Thank you!} ( '-')b
Good to hear you have the depression (mostly) under control!
It is amazing how many people I run into are on Effexor... lol. Real life and in game... dozens and dozens. The scary thing is how many people out there are still undiagnosed and have no idea what clinical depression is >.>
"Clinical depression /= EMO"
http://www.clinical-depression.co.uk/images/CycleComplex.gif
Around 1 in 5 people aged 25-30 suffer from it (with women WAY more likely to suffer), so I guess I really shouldn't be surprised. People who don't have it have no idea what it is like. It's nothing like the loss of a loved one, or a tragedy; that is healthy, normal depression.
My version of it was more or less caused from a sleeping disorder, possibly from job related stress. The loss of REM sleep, or the recovery sleep that follows. Most of the symptoms of that form of depression match those of "CIA style" sleep deprivation for the purpose of interrogation. A funny thing happens in your brain chemistry with severe sleep pattern interruption. Your self preservation instincts shut down... this is followed by loss of appetite, self worth, anti-social tendencies, and eventually self destruction.
This has nothing to do with video games, drugs, alcohol, or rock and roll. Nor does it have anything to do with Tom Cruise and his Sci Fi religion ^^ It's biochemistry and is easily treated. But in many cases, clinical depression can push someone from being a recreational "user" to an "abuser". Anti-depressants often enter into substance abuse programs with amazing results. Methadone and counseling goes nowhere if your brain chemistry has suppressed your will to live.
Suicides linked to untreated clinical depression rank at #6 as the leading cause of death for people aged 20-30 in the USA. Car accidents and other things are higher on that list, but that is really quite scary. Clinical depression is also expected to be north americas top cause for worker disability by 2010. (I know sever people who were literally debilitated for months at a time). If it is untreated, people seem to simply lose motivation and eventually their jobs because of it.
Lol I went off on a tangent there ^^ Grats again for getting your life back on track. And for those who didn't know much about depression.. hopefully you learned something.
It is amazing how many people I run into are on Effexor... lol. Real life and in game... dozens and dozens. The scary thing is how many people out there are still undiagnosed and have no idea what clinical depression is >.>
"Clinical depression /= EMO"
http://www.clinical-depression.co.uk/images/CycleComplex.gif
Around 1 in 5 people aged 25-30 suffer from it (with women WAY more likely to suffer), so I guess I really shouldn't be surprised. People who don't have it have no idea what it is like. It's nothing like the loss of a loved one, or a tragedy; that is healthy, normal depression.
My version of it was more or less caused from a sleeping disorder, possibly from job related stress. The loss of REM sleep, or the recovery sleep that follows. Most of the symptoms of that form of depression match those of "CIA style" sleep deprivation for the purpose of interrogation. A funny thing happens in your brain chemistry with severe sleep pattern interruption. Your self preservation instincts shut down... this is followed by loss of appetite, self worth, anti-social tendencies, and eventually self destruction.
This has nothing to do with video games, drugs, alcohol, or rock and roll. Nor does it have anything to do with Tom Cruise and his Sci Fi religion ^^ It's biochemistry and is easily treated. But in many cases, clinical depression can push someone from being a recreational "user" to an "abuser". Anti-depressants often enter into substance abuse programs with amazing results. Methadone and counseling goes nowhere if your brain chemistry has suppressed your will to live.
Suicides linked to untreated clinical depression rank at #6 as the leading cause of death for people aged 20-30 in the USA. Car accidents and other things are higher on that list, but that is really quite scary. Clinical depression is also expected to be north americas top cause for worker disability by 2010. (I know sever people who were literally debilitated for months at a time). If it is untreated, people seem to simply lose motivation and eventually their jobs because of it.
Lol I went off on a tangent there ^^ Grats again for getting your life back on track. And for those who didn't know much about depression.. hopefully you learned something.
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