Damn, that sucks, Moe. At least give yourself the credit that you stopped to help in your capacity to do so. So many don't nowadays.
I once watched a car on the highway careen into another car, get airborne, flip, and crash land roof down in NYC. Just seeing that happen fu
cked me up for quite awhile. I wasnt driving and the husband refused to stop and help because so many other cars already did. I had a lot of guilt and anger that we didnt stop. And I had a lot of nightmares for months about it.
I know its cliche to say that time will take away that edge once everything sinks on for you but it's true. However, witnessing something like that never quite leaves you. Do what you can to process, and make sure you find someone close who is willing to let you verbalize all the crap you feel. Or just take it out on the mooglefuc
kers here. We'll fully support your endeavor to get back to normal in any way you feel will help. Huggles