I'll tell ya, I have almost been playing this game for a year now, its funny becuase I just felt like ranting a little bit becuase I get rated down for speaking my mind becuase obviously I dont have much of an impact of what I do or what I say, somehow I find myself hurting someones feelings... I dont understand it really, I try to bust my *** to try to help as many people I can on FFXI but it isnt enough to keep people inside Benevolence (my LS), I had a problem awhile back with KoV taking alot of my reguluar members and it hurt alot to have to try to build up back to a strong linkshell, I will honestly say I feel like FFXI is another "job" away from the military.
I am a desk jockey in the navy and then right after I hit the computer again, I play and type so much I end up getting blisters on my fingers lol, there are things I try to do to help others and there are times I want to just turn on invisible/anon and just go crazy, I had my fun last week when I was on leave and I did nothing but watch anime and play FFXI. To take a break from the stress of work and just focus on the thing fundementals of FFXI, hitting and bashing the s**t out of stuff, then when the weekend rolled around, I found myself doing three things in one day, Promvyion-Holla, helping someone with Rank 4-1 (Beaudeu *forgot how to spell) and Promyvion-Mea. Then the next day we did 5 rounds of BCNM 40. 2 hours later I had to work til 2 am.
I will tell you, that tired me out, it seemed harder than doing my regular job lol, and I just wish people would know that we have alot of people behind the screen who do not get realized how much they work and I do not see thier names on any white list or anything, I see them forgotten. I felt like I really needed to say this and I just want to know am I the only one working so hard in this game?
Am I trying to become so high strung for nothing? I know there is alot of hard times in this game and sometimes I just say "***** it" and go watch anime or play "Smackdown VS. Raw" to get my anger out lol.
Now to try to finish this little speech, I dont have any intention of qutting FFXI anytime soon, but I know I will miss it, becuase I am going to Japan in 4 months and I will be attached to a ship and I know I will miss alot of the interaction and friends I have made here, but of course there are times when I just wish that everyone will get along, and just do the job they know how to do and just move on.
I don't know if I am making any seince, but I just hope I got my point across, I have so far 3 other friends at my workplace who also play FFXI and we talk about it ALOT! Whenever we see each other its about an alchemy resipe or helping them lvl up a bit more, information about missions, whatever, thats what I love about this game, knowing that I am not the only around me playing it. Hell, we got 3 people in one house playing at the same time! Its awesomeness!
Well, thats all I got, u can rate me down if you want to, I don't care, I just felt like the forums is the best place for this and I think those who do know me, please please help me! I can't do all of this alone, its hard doing this, and I have too much to worry about to take on alot of these tasks along with preparing to go overseas ><. So thank you all, sayonara!
*Edit didnt look right.* :p
Edited, Wed Jan 26 02:43:17 2005 by SirTanta