Ah, drama I know thee so well. My old LS (the much hated conquistadors for some bizarre reason) over constant arguing.
It began when our leader quit the game for personal reasons. Soon after another person I admired left. Without these people to look up to and keep the peace, things got out of control. Sackholders desparate to keep the fire burning invited people who many of us, umm, didn't see eye to eye with.
The bickering and aguing went from harmless resentment to thrashing out in spite. One member tried to come up with another LS for the rest of us to retreat to (why we didnt' just kick the problematic, I don't know. I know why I didn't, I'm spineless) However, lack of confidense in her leadership abilites ruined that, and now she holds us in cotempt, much to my dismay, I don't like others feeling ill of me. Well, it finally became too much, so I saught after sanctuary.
I turned to the ill-fated kingdomknights, but because I resent people who have the "I'm just not uber enough/I have 3mil but its just not enough" attitude, I turned to FatesHand. I really only joined it because a friend of mine was in it. But, alas, he has gone to another world... (World of Warcraft, damn it) I still have the pearl, but since there's really nobody in it I know, I'm far too timid to use it. All the LS's I've been in save my first and FatesHand, I've sat down and chatted with one or two members before I got in, and its much easier to know you're not chatting to strangers, but good friends.
So, I created a new LS hoping the old conquistadors would come back. That lasted like a week. While in rangumont pass, for what I can't recal, I was invited to TiersOfDarkness (after getting to know the group well ^^), my new home. I love those guys ^^. Bless your hearts for putting up with me *coughIarguetoomuchcough* *coughIcomplainalotcough*
About a month ago, I was cleaning out my moghouse, and I found something: Pearlsack <Conquistadors> I looked at it for a long time. I looked at my friendslist, and saw the names of those who hadn't shown under 'online' for too long. After shedding I tear, I finnaly let go. Item>Drop>Really dispose of the Pearlsack<Conquistadors>? ..........Yes. It was my first real 'home' in lakshmi. But now that I have a new home, I could finally let go. Sanura, your legacy will always be in my heart. I still keep in touch with whats left of us, but...
It's always hard saying goodbye.